I never thought of myself as an optimistic person. In fact I’m the total opposite being both skeptical and pessimistic. But as expected, the big “C” changes you. I’ve found myself becoming strangely optimistic – like finding meaning in small conversations with random strangers or feeling extremely grateful when I’m having a great day. But of course I have major highs and major lows, sometimes feeling free as a bird or wanting to wear nothing but black. Before my surgery, I actually came upon a…